Fast track!

I get everything, everything that I want.
But, just a little late.
And I don’t wait.

All this while I tried, tried a lot. When things didn’t work out, I moved on. Moved on in every sense of that word. Leaving everything behind.
The dreams I saw and the hopes I held, collecting them one by one, crushing them with your own hands and then disposing them off, it’s not easy.
I know I have a better future waiting for me ahead, I am sure of it.
But it doesn’t make it easier by any chance to accept that once your dreams are no more now.

Can the future make up for the past? I really don’t know.
All I chose is not just to look ahead but walk ahead as well, without any regrets. I gave whatever I could and when I could no more, I stopped.
My past is my past, it made me who I am, I have no regrets, wouldn’t change a thing. I just don't live there anymore.

Sorrows do not last forever when we are journeying towards the thing we have always wanted.
You are following the path you dreamt of.
So hang on a while and smile.
Because not everybody is as lucky as you are.

Meant to be...Free!

Are my words a waste?
Or are they just another way to escape?
What is it that I try to find?
Why are my actions so confined?
Endless cups of coffee
And que of iced tea glasses
My ears are usually plugged in with loud music. A volume so high that I can feel the beats in my heart.
Volume high enough to deafen my inner voice.
And I listen to music…seems like noise although.

After a long time today, I felt the intensity of my thoughts and the depth of my words.
Sitting in a coffee shop, sipping my coffee; out of nowhere, my eyes brimmed.
I could feel the emotions stuck in my throat.
My unpredictability amazed me.
I stared at the pages I just wrote, every word written was felt inside. Too deep perhaps.

Suddenly it was dark and sad inside
I could see nothing with open eyes
Perhaps it was time to realize
That there was an empty chair in front of me
And this was how I chose to be
Giving you up was never easy
When together we were meant to be
But you were an addiction
And I wanted to be free.

If I would have you right now,I would stare at you for hours & tell you things nobody ever told you.

But, I don't.

So let me hold my hand, just like you did & close my eyes.

And I am here with you, floating...going far.
Just a bit way too far...too far to realise to come back.

Maybe just too far to even be called back.

If it could, I would.

I wish you would talk
Or stop me going my way
Taking the blame
I start the game
I want to keep it going
I behave so insane
I see you standing and staring
Accepting things I am saying
I am so clear headed
I am so strong
But this time
I want you to prove me wrong
Are we done
Done with the game?
So let’s come together
And start all over again

Incomplete

Sometimes it feels
there isnt a me
I look at the mirror
but nothing I can see

The light gets through
as if I am not there
& I dont feel
myself just so bare

I speak to myself
But the me doesnt reply
The voices escape
The self just doesnt comply

Am I still breathing?
or right at the door?
Is it the sky?
Or an invisible floor?

Is it that tunnel
which leads to the other side?
Or is it just me
Who has just died?

(Wrote this at 4-5 am, cant get enough thoughts now to complete it :-| )

To Be OR not To Be.

On 29th June 2008, Delhi held its first ever gay pride march, along with similar gatherings in Bangalore and Kolkata.
On 23rd July 2008, Mumbai high court judge Bikal Nazki said that India’s unnatural sex law should be reviewed.
Recently, Indian health minister Anbumani Ramdoss expressed his support for legalising homosexuality.

Homosexuality in India is generally considered a taboo subject by both Indian society and government. Public discussion of homosexuality in India has been inhibited by the fact that sexuality in any form is rarely discussed openly. But depictions and homosexuality in the Indian news media and by Bollywood, however shows the slight shift in India’s attitude towards the much hushed topic.

Homosexual relations are legally still a crime in India under an old British era statute dating from 1860 called section 377 of the Indian Penal Code which criminalizes “carnal intercourse against the order of the nature.”
There is no legal recognition of the same sex couple under Indian law.

During a recent visit to India by the Canadian Prime Minister Paul Martin, the Indian Prime Minister Manmohan Singh was asked by a journalist what he thought of the new law allowing gay marriage in Canada. His reply was that, ‘there would not be much appreciation for a law like this in India.”
And he went on to talk about how they were culturally very different countries.

Section 377 still remains a debatable issue in India. It would be however, interesting to know that none of the major political parties have endorsed gay rights concern into their official party manifesto. The law continues to be on the books. It is used by some to threaten and blackmail homosexuals. It is also used by police when registering complaints lodged by the parents of the parties involved.
For instance, a lesbian couple that ran away together in Uttar Pradesh were arrested and handed back, despite of both being of legal age by applying this section as the legal basis of their arrest.

India, the largest democracy in the world might have one of the most impressive constitutions, but for a section of its citizens, the right to freedom of speech and expression is denied.